Just plain old toughts.

I wish my name wasn't said.
I wish I was never borned.
I wish my voice wasn't heard.
I wish I was dead.
I wish my parents loved me.
I wish I could live.
I wish that my heart had fellings.
I wish I could make it right.
I wish dreams weren't so real.
I wish I couldn't see.
I wish my life wasn't a mess.
I wish I could change a soul.
I wish my love for you wasn't strong.
I wish I could actually be pretty.
I wish life was as easy as walking.
I wish I could just eat.
I wish phones weren't everything.
I wish I could drink.
I wish everything wasn't perfect.
I wish I could drug.
I wish school wasn't soo hard.
I wish I could fail.
I wish my eyes couldn't see.
I wish I didn't need help.
I wish he didn't push me to the limit.
I wish I could just live.

I wish.

You called me beautiful.
Birthday sex wasn't just a song.
Down was not my only felling.
Me and her weren't in an awkward moment.
You didn't miss her.
I didn't cry every night.
The stupidest thing wouldn't change my   mood.
I was perfect as is.
All my dreams weren't just about you.
True friends were real.
School wasn't so hard.
Everyone would just be real.
Peace would actually be possible.
Songs didn't mean that much.
Every thing I think about was real.
Metro station was my family.
You weren't the one.
Tears weren't shred as of now.
Friends were not bra's.

I just wish .

I love you , I hate you.

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But.

It's seems like you miss me ,
But why do you ignore me ?

We talk 24/7 ,
But nothing ever changes.

I text you and you text me ,
But it's always the same conversation .

I listen to my iPod ,
But why does every song remind me if you ?

I walk to school not thinking ,
But you always somehow make my mind.

I see her then look at you ,
But I say everything will be alright .

I see your call ,
But I tell myself not to get big hopes.

I try to act the same around you ,
But I always tend to change.

I wanna stay in the same place ,
But it seems like we get farther apart.

So empty.

I fell like it's only me left.
Felling empty.
No more feelings to waste.
So empty.
It seems like no one actually cares.
I wish it was real .
Every single thing I think about.
But I'm just so plain empty .
Every dream seems to just back around.
Maybe it's karma paying me back.
I hear our old song.
Not even a tear is shred.
My bffl's picture seems to hunt me .
But i can't remember my past.
I hear the phone.
I answer with no actual felling.
I see my parents .
And see only the future.
Everyone is so happy.
Buy I'm just plain empty .

Can you see .

Can you see.
Your hurting me. he'd
With all you do.
Even a glance makes me remeber.
Maybe it's over.
Like it seems it is.

Can you see.
The pain comming out of me.
With all you do .
Around her and me.
It' like you never see.

Can you see.
How all you do .
Can always hit me.
Making me realize .
We aren't meant to be.

Can you see.
How ignorant you see.
Right in front off me.
But it's just me.
But I hope you can see.